David and I get married in just 17 days. I can hardly even believe it. We have been engaged for so long that it really almost seems unreal that we are getting married so soon. We are in the process of finishing up last minute wedding details and getting all of our ducks in a row. We have been in wedding planning mode for so long that I may not even know what to do with myself once the wedding is over haha
I have been experiencing the emotions that come with wedding planning and preparing to get married. Basically, feeling stressed out and extremely excited yet incredibly nervous but really, really happy.
I try not to think of the fact that I'm going to be leaving home in just a couple short weeks (2 1/2 weeks to be exact) because I really am trying to just enjoy this time and not make myself upset by the thought of moving out. It's hard not to think about, though, when my baby sister comes into my room in the morning, says "Hi, Sissy!" then proceeds to climb into bed with me. It's going to be impossible not to miss that. It's hard when I am sitting on the couch with my parents and all of my little siblings watching tv, and the thought "It won't be like this for long" crosses my mind. It's hard when I'm out shopping with my mom, laughing with her and just enjoying her company, knowing it won't be as easy to have days out with her when I'll be living 30 minutes away.
I know that it won't always be hard. I know that a time will come when living with David and calling his apartment my home will just become natural. I know that we will settle down, and I will discover a new normal.
As I was heading to bed last night, I went around hugging everyone as usual and telling everyone goodnight.... "Goodnight, Cody and Landon and Laura and Mom and Travis." (They were the only ones awake at the time) As I was saying my good nights, I kind of laughed to myself and told my mom how weird it is going to be at first just saying goodnight to David every night when I am used to saying goodnight to 9 people every night.
As we get closer to getting married, I have been thinking less of the actual wedding planning and more on what's to come for me. Big life changes are coming. I've been used to living the life that I am living for 23 years, and it's going to take some time to adjust to our new life together.
But do you know what? I am SO excited! The sadness that comes with moving out does not in any way trump the complete bliss of knowing that I am marrying my best friend.
David and I would appreciate all of the prayers we can get as we start this new chapter of our lives. We love you all!
Love,
Ashley